Reflecting . . .

So I have been doing a lot of "reflecting" lately, thinking of the good, the bad and the ugly!

The Good . . . I have the most amazing husband and am blessed to have found him. He puts a smile on my face everyday. My family and friends, though most are much too far away. I miss them all everyday. I am healthy and have a roof over my head.

The Bad . . . I do not regret moving to Florida, not at all! It just sucks being so far away from my family and friends. My Mom was very sick last summer and I was only able to come home twice and only for a week, she needed me and I was too far away. I missed some of my friends weddings, the birth of friends first born, the changing of the seasons, Homecoming, Red Sox games, summers on the Cape, Christmas parties, New Years parties, Memorial Day & Labor Day BBQ's and so much more. I hear about all of the things I have missed since moving and hate that I am missing it all.

Yes, the ugly . . . I pulled out my old journals a few weeks ago. I read them from front to back, both collage and my first few years in Florida. I learned a lot about myself that I truly do not think I knew back then. I was not very proud of myself, I was depressed and I was jealous. I think reading those journals is what really opened my eyes to what I missed out on. Moving to Florida was a way to escape how I felt or so I thought, but I continued to have the same problems when I moved over a thousand miles away from my friends and family. It wasn't until I was in Florida for a year that things started to change. I was more confident and finally realized that I could do this and I did!

Today . . . I am much happier person than 10 years ago because I finally realized that nothing is perfect and things change. I have the love of my life by side, a good job, and family and friends that mean the world to me.

So with all being said, and so much more to come, I started this blog to share with people who I am and where I am going. I hope you enjoy . . .