Friday, September 19, 2008

By the way . . .

I have found blogging to be a great way to vent. But I promise that my next post will not be venting! Stay tuned . . . well if you want ;-)

Drama

So I need to vent . . . I have a person in my life (lets not put a label on them) that makes me feel like I am back in high school sometimes. Will will go through phases where we talk everyday and then we don't talk for a couple of weeks. When we haven't talk in a while, I usually get a call basically saying I never keep in touch. Except sometimes I do call (sometimes I leave a message, sometimes I don't) and they don't call back, then they say "i didn't have a missed call", basically implying that I lied about calling in the first place. Wait, why is it okay for them not to call but I am a bad person for not calling them? Seriously, I don't have to talk to anyone (except hubby) everyday of my life and I shouldn't have to make excuses as to why I did or did not call! Last I checked I am almost 30 years old, never liked drama, being petty and playing games. I know I am not the "best" at keeping in touch. I hate that it is that way. I know that everyone is busy and it is hard to catch people at a "good time". A lot of my friends have babies or are in school. Evenings don't work a lot of the time. I have been trying to talk to one friend for a week. Finally we decided we needed to call in the morning on the way to work! It isn't laziness or not wanting to talk, it is truly finding the time. I do not know one of my friends that is not crazy busy with something. I wish it were not like that but it is. The only thing that makes this crummy situation okay is that when I finally get in touch with one of my closest friends (or they get me) it is like we talked yesterday for the most part. Just like when I go home for vacation and see my friends, it is like we were just together yesterday once we start catching up. I live over a thousand miles away from most of my family and friends, i don't have the luxury of seeing them all the time so it is very rewarding knowing that I have such awesome friends that can pick up right where we left off.
Needless to say this blog is kind of all over the place. When I first started typing I was so upset but just thinking about the people that don't frustrate me like this person has calmed me down. Those friends know who they are too, I miss you all!